insecurities & fears

please tell me i'm not the only one.

it lasts about a week.

every month.

around the same time.

little thoughts start creeping in.

bad thoughts.

fears.

i have a precious family. lots of precious friends. a precious church.

and yet, at these 'times' all that is forgotten and i'm left in a heap of my sinful thoughts and fears. insecurity takes over.

i can see it coming. i'm aware that it's going on. but not until i'm in the middle of a bad decision does it finally make me pause and fall to my knees.

i was reminded this past Sunday of just how important it is to take every thought captive and instead of comparing it to the world, compare it to the scriptures and what God would say about it.

you'd think after so many years of months of these 'times' i would learn. so thankful for a God that gives mercies, new every month. and friends that love me through them.